Naughty Curiosity

I'm a married woman with small children. So I was surprised this week when I felt that little butterfly that you get in your stomach when a really great looking guy glances your way and you catch each other's eye. I blushed and smiled gently. My mind filled with naughty curiosity. Geez, where is this coming from today? What is it about that little wave of chemistry that can be exchanged across a crowded room by two people? How is it that one person can cause a burst of hormones and adrenaline inside your body with nothing more than a look?

I continued to watch him, glancing often in his direction, selfishly hoping for that little wave of butterflies again. Remember that first love feeling? That new love feeling? That obsessed with everything that guy does feeling? That 'I'm just going to drive by your house and hope to see you by chance' feeling? That childlike adventure of love and how just brushing up against that person could turn your world upside down with lust! The first kiss, the anticipation all night of when could it happen. The feeling of his lips against mine - finally. The never want this night to end feeling.

That was exactly the way I felt when I first met Wayne. I was dating a guy I adored, but every time Wayne even walked into a room, my attention focused on him and I became head-over-heels in love. The curiosity and new love. The close 'accidental' encounters, our bodies brushing past one another. The first time we joked around with friends and he grabbed me to tease me and restrain me. I about lost myself. His breath on my cheek. His smiling blue eyes. The way he smelled. It was all I could do to restrain myself and not kiss him...my boyfriend would not have approved.

Nearly 20 years ago, Wayne and I started our love affair. And when he looked at me this week and I fell madly in love with him again, I felt so lucky. I've been blessed with a man that time and time again can give me those little butterflies. No one else has ever done that to me. How great that I feel like leaving my perfect life and sneaking out late at night when my kids are asleep to run off on a passionate, lustful adventure with my own husband.

2008 has been an extraordinary year for him. I think that his energy with life right now leaves him just glowing with pride and passion. His confidence, so subtle, is just sexy to me. The harder he works toward his dream right now, the more I want him. There is just something about a man who knows what he wants and goes for it. It probably doesn't hurt his sex appeal that he wears a uniform too... Today I'm so thankful for my marriage to my best friend.